So today was pretty good. I got up at 7 a.m. to get ready. We had to drop Preslie off with Granny at 10, then we had to drop Julia off at 1:30, and be at a baby shower at 3. The baby shower was fun. After the baby shower I had to babysit. It's Kellie's 40th birthday party so I watched Benjamin so they could throw her a party. Benjamin is so cute, he didn't cry the whole time. I think he's actually getting used to me now. At about 9 Emory and Ricky came and got us and took us to the party so Benjamin could see everybody. It was cool. They rented the top of a barbecue joint in Alpharetta. I think everybody had fun. Well anyways, I'm starting to figure out some things lately. I'm so sick of people taking advantage of me to only get what they want from me and then leave me stranded by myself. I'm also tired of getting put down constantly. I hate when people take all their problems out on me and make me feel bad and like I can never do anything right. Lately it seems like I will never be able to do anything to make anyone happy. All I ever try to do is make them proud of me, but I guess it'll never work. I'm just going to stop caring and stop trying. I'm sick of trying to do whatever I can to make someone proud of me or make someone happy and then just get treated like nothing. I'm so sick of all your crap. Like, really. STOP. I'm also tired of being thrown to the side of the road. We were best friends and now your ditching me for her, every time I try to make plans with you. So thanks. I always get my hopes up for nothing. Nobody ever does what they say their going to do anymore. I know I'm not innocent and I am guilty of saying I'm going to do something and not doing it, but I try so hard. Everything I do is always wrong. I can never make you happy. Whatever. Well I guess I'm going to bed. Goodnight.
"Don't stop dreaming, because there is nothing wrong with wanting more."
-Megan Taylor Jensen.<3
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